I have so much on my mind right now, it feels like it’s going to explode. These past few weeks have been so great. I have had so many “realizations” it’s ridiculous. I have no clue where to start. Well, okay for instance- I NEVER watch TV… except for the occasional Thursday night The Office. I can’t miss that. But other than that … and the news (O’ Riley Factor and Shawn Hanity woot woot!) I do not watch TV- I don’t like it. 98% of the time it is a waste of time! So, why bother? Read a book… do something creative and useful. That’s my motto. Anyway, I’m getting off subject, couple of days ago, I actually sat down and watched some TV (because I was painting my nails) and to my sad surprise, there was a talk show interviewing this 18 year old girl who was a porn star. What the CRAP? She had only been doing this job for six months and had already appeared in 80 films, received STD’s and unfortunately, she had already became cold to the world. If I could describe her, I would automatically describe her as this: sad, depressed, cold, lonely, confused, no respect for herself, wished for death. She said that she didn’t care about getting STD’s- she “knows what’s in-store”
Imagine talking to someone like that. I know, (as Stephen has informed me) that these talk show hosts bring people like this on their show for their own ratings …and yes high ratings do bring in a good amount of profit, smart move. However, the truth still remains, this “little girl” is a porn star. She was interviewed on the Insider as well. Same sad face and lost look. Can you imagine having absolutely no respect for yourself like that? Considering yourself as low and dirty as a disease? I must confess, after hearing what she does for a living, suddenly made me extremely upset with her. Not only is she being destructive to herself, but also to families around the world…not just the country…the WORLD. She is making men stumble. Wives cry with their heart aching. And children eventually be fatherless. This was a sad reality for me. As stupid as watching a talk show is, God used it… in a funny way. It’s like He reminded me why I’m in school. He reminded me why I have a minor in Women’s Ministry and why I’m working toward a Biblical Studies degree. He reminded me why I love Women’s Ministry. I had become to burned out- tired of asking the Lord why, if He won’t give me a Ministry here… why am I studying to get a degree?
It was a hard reality reminder. Why am I sharing this? Well, to encourage you. I don’t care what your major is. It can be anything- God can use it. Don’t give up, finish strong, for Him. As Christians we are call to Ministry, whether we like it or not. Ministry is anywhere and everywhere. Whether you’ve been called to China like I have, or to Boston. It is still a Mission field.
One more thought. There is a church- two pastors, who are amazing. It’s like XXX Church, or something like that- but they are amazing. Please keep praying for them and there ministry. I was telling Stephen today, that I give them my hat, they are amazing because I could never minister to the Porn Industry.
Pray for their Ministry. And for yours :-)